Wednesday, 27 June 2012

Long Time No Blog

So I mentioned that I was getting overwhelmed and then I sort of stopped blogging.

I needed a time out I was putting too much pressure on my self to get my Photo A Day photos up along with everything else.

How am I feeling now?

Well I can honestly say that I am getting there, a few little glitches and I am sure that there will be a few more glitches along the way.

I have now completed a Stress Control Course that was useful - sometimes its a case of reaffirming what you know. I have all of the course handouts and will be reviewing. I think the biggest break through for me was the realisation that if I am still struggling then I will be able to go for one on one therapy - something that I have always shied away from and would not have done in the past. I will get a call in a few weeks to see how I am going and I get to ask for another assessment if I feel I need it. I also get the back up of being able to call them to get referred back into the service any time that I want (but there are still those pesky waiting lists).

I am working towards getting back to the desk job and well we will see how that goes - I think I have learnt that I perhaps need to be a bit more honest about being sick (disabled) to myself and everybody. I may be a SuperMouse but I have come to realise that just because I could do something a couple of years ago doesn't mean that I can do it now. My body took quite a knock and I think I didn't really want to admit it. I think I forgot and just assumed that I could keep going and everything would work itself out and I would be back to where I was before. It doesn't work like that. I needed rest. I needed to give myself permission to heal.

By heal I don't mean that I am magically better.

I needed to re-establish that balance and work out where my base line levels are now (still a work in progress) and remember to take breaks and not feel like a failure for having to take time out.

I did continue to take photos - Yay

But I did miss the odd day here and there and you know what I dont care, I missed a few days here and there at the start of the challenge because the move and well I am going to continue and get a full 365 photos up.

When I started the challenge I thought - easy - but you know what it is actually harder than it seems especially when you take the majority of your photos on a camera rather than a phone and then I joined another photo a day thing over on Blipfoto (I do like to make things complicated).

But I do enjoy wandering around with my camera and I realise that I am starting to ramble now - lol.

So anyway getting to the point - I have taken photos and I am going to do a few Photo A Day catch up posts over the next few days and then I hope that you will join me for the journey to the end of the challenge and maybe we can think up a new challenge for when this one is over :)

And a huge thank you to everyone who has commented and given support and advice over the last 6 months - I really dont think I would have gotten as far as I have done without the encouragement, virtual hand holding and advice. 

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